Its Resolution Time...Or is it?

'Tis the season...So Xmas has just passed and New Years is on the horizon. This is the time of year people start to say all the shit they are planning to do or not do the coming year. Well that or talk about all this shit they were suppose to do or not do the last News Years and failed. I'm calling BULLSHIT on the majority of you and included in that majority is ME!

I can remember back many New Years ago making resolutions about shit I haven't even thought of since I spoke them aloud to anyone who would listen. Is it that people like me lack focus? Is it that some of the things we say we are going to do or not do so far fetched? Are we living fantasies? Who knows, but the funny thing is you can recognize these people very easily. They are the ones who have promised the same changes every year since you have known them. I used to say all types of stuff I wasn't going to do or that I needed to start doing but as soon as I was confronted with that "thing", whatever it was I just passed it off and acted as if it was no big deal anymore and that actually worked for me until now. In the last few years I have not even worried about resolutions or anything that resembled one.

It comes a time when you just have look at your life for exactly what it is and accept that some things may take much longer to happen or that they may not happen at all. For those that may take this as me being pessimistic I am not. I am neither optimistic nor pessimistic, the glass isn't half full or half empty to me its just a half of glass. I look at things for exactly what they are plain and simple. So now when I get hit with the question, "What are your New Year's Resolutions?" I am going to answer with, "Who said I had anything to Resolve? What are you trying to say that I have some shit wrong with me?" In my opinion we have trained our minds to believe when Jan. 1st hits that we need to be doing something different than we were on Dec. 31st. What if the year before you had a great year? Do you still need to do anything different? The sad thing is most people would answer YES! There is always room for improvement. You can lose more weight, make more money, go more places, meet more people, gain more success, quit something, start something new...yadda yadda yadda and what I came to realize is that what your essentially telling yourself is that YOU WILL NEVER BE HAPPY!

I vowed not to give two tears in a bucket about what people think of me, feel I should be doing or how I should be living. I have been practicing this vow for sometime now. The people who have had to deal with me either like me or they don't and the people who actually know me either love me or hate me. You wont find many people in either scenario that aren't on one side or the other and to be completely honest that is exactly how I like it, how more cut and dry can you get than that? So with that said I know my happiness depends solely on me and the people I decided to allow to enjoy it, share it and live it with me and no resolution can change that. Hopefully you all may see the same silver lining in the dark grey clouds as I have.

As always thank you for your eyes and ears.